To Doppler or Not to Doppler - Week 13

I have been astonishingly — ASTONISHINGLY — positive about this pregnancy. Maybe its the good NT scan, maybe its something else...I don’t know! All I know is that while I worry and worry and worry, there is some part of me somewhere down deep inside that feels like this baby is OK.
So with that comes peace.
Until last night. I don’t know what happened. My husband and I were talking about the baby a little bit and I felt fine. We decided to take our daughter to see the new Superman movie (bad idea. Not a film for kids. Not a good film for adults, either.) While we were sitting in the dark theater, somewhere in the middle of Superman’s umpteenth battle, it hit me.
Something might be wrong.
I think something is wrong.
Something is wrong.

I started to think back...when was the last time I felt this baby? (I’m feeling little movements, but not much else, It’s really too early for movement).
Then I started to panic. The baby is dead. I know it. No heartbeat. I KNOW IT.
When we got home from the movies, I asked my husband if I could get a Doppler to keep track of the baby’s heartbeat.
SIDE NOTE: My husband never tells me no. I am spoiled rotten.
He said no!
He said he doesn’t want to deal with the days when I can’t find the heartbeat on my own. He thinks that stress will be too much for me. He thinks it will be too much for him.
“I don’t care if you find one for free,” he said. “I don’t want it.”

So now I have to wait until July 8 to find out if this kid is still kicking in there. That’s two whole weeks!
I was even tempted to go to the local “free clinic” where they charge you $50 per appointment and see if they have a Doppler and could check the baby.
I don’t know if a Doppler would help or hurt this situation. As with everything with this pregnancy, I am without answers.

On another note: still nothing on the target genetic test. I’m hoping for results by Wednesday, but I bet it comes in later than that. Wednesday will be 10 business days since my CVS. I’m just ready for some answers.