Round ligament pain and other pregnancy happiness - Week 12

I am no longer peeing every 15 minutes, which is very nice at night, but I have developed Round Ligament Pain. Ugh. Terrible, sudden shooting pains up my belly and into what feels like my cervix. I had these with my son John, so I know it isn’t going to kill me or the breadcrumb, but my poor husband barely survives these pains.
He just doesn’t know what to do, he fears something is really wrong. I swear he is going to die of a heart attack before we meet this little one. Everything, everything is a big deal when you are analyzing each and every detail of a pregnancy.
The morning sickness is all but gone. I am feeling dizzy and weak most of the time, which is attributed to the increase in blood flow due to the baby. Showers are the worst for this and there is no worse place to pass out than in the shower.
The app on my smart phone tells me breadcrumb is the size of a lime and I LOVE those little food comparisons. I sought out a lime in the grocery store today and felt more like an expectant mom than ever before.
I still can’t go into the baby section at the store. I can’t look at all the clothes and bottles and diapers. It still hurts too much. I had such huge hopes for both my boys — and especially Drew, my youngest, who was supposed to be my “rainbow baby.” Who has a rainbow baby and doesn’t savor every second of it?
Me, now.
This is *very hopefully* our rainbow, but I can’t enjoy it like I wish I could. I figure we have a minimum of nine days left before we get the results of our genetic tests, and even after that I won’t likely buy anything or plan anything until after we go to the early anatomy scan on July 8. I just won’t be able to relax until I see about diaphragmatic hernia, cystic hygroma and neural tube defects. Those are my focus. I’m not sure why. I guess because Drew had cystic hygroma and the hernia, unlike his big brother. So I question, of course, whether these were part of the glycosylation or rouge defects that lead to a higher chance of future babies having them?
The world may never know.