"ohn and 'dew"

I wear my necklace with my children's names on it everywhere I go. I have a charm for each child and each charm has their name and their spirit animal on it. John's has a footprint.

Anyway, I don't think there is a day in Clark's life that he hasn't seen me with that necklace. I never take it off. The other night he was standing on my bed and put his little arms around my neck to hug me. Then he had this very serious look on his face and he was looking at my necklace. So I showed him "Emily" "John" "Drew" and "Clark" on each charm.

"Emmy!"
"Ohn!"
"Dew!"
"Aark!"

And then he said it all again, going through all the charms.

I can't describe the feeling of hearing my miracle baby say the names of his brothers out loud. It was as if I had never heard their names before. Like a song sung in a different tune.

I swear, I swear, I swear, I will never let the world forget about my boys. Hearing Clark say their names makes me even more resolved to their memory.

Oh, my heart.