Did It Again - Week 19

So we skipped week 18. Life is busy and crazy with me working about one and a half jobs right now. Do I need to work so much? No. Do I want to work so much? No.

So why do I feel the need to work my pregnant self to death? Who knows. I just want to get financially ahead before this baby comes.

Baby, baby, baby. Thank goodness for this wiggly baby! I feel him every single day, multiple times each day. He gets especially wiggly for Mallo Cups right now. It's the most fantastic thing to be able to let go of my deep fear because I can FEEL him. Just about the time not-so-irrational "Dead Baby Girl" gets scared, Clark knees me in the bladder and it hurts and I am happy and soothed. Listen - Baby Loss Mamas know - we take comfort in the strange, small things.

Part of our busy life of crazy includes getting our house ready for Clark. We took all the furniture and junk out of the guest room last weekend. (We have been using this room for "storage" since John died. By "storage" I mean we were hoarders in one room).

We sorted the stuff and got rid of most of the furniture. Then my husband vacuumed and spot cleaned the carpet, vacuumed again and then used a borrowed Hoover carpet cleaner to deep clean it. OH. MY. GOD the stuff that came out of that carpet! So we stood in the doorway of the little bedroom and decided to go ahead and replace the carpet anyway because we hate the color, it was in the house when we bought it, and the stuff that came out of it was gross.

So now we will scrub down the walls and let them dry. Then we will paint and then have the new carpet installed and THEN we can put the baby furniture in there.

In the middle of all of this we painted and redecorated our daughter's room and transformed it into "The Big Sister Room."

The 7-year-old is very excited about Clark, but she has been an only child for a long, long time. The concern is that she won't feel special when he comes, that she will begin to resent him. So we are transforming her room (and her, to some degree) into "The Big Sister." So now her room is Tiffany blue instead of baby pink. Big Sister.

As for symptoms, my feet still hurt and I am MOST CERTAINLY in my maternity clothes (especially pants!) now. I need to buy bigger underwear and that's never fun. As I mentioned before, I feel the little one kicking and wiggling all the time now. Cravings are gone, but now I just eat everything all the time. I'm almost always hungry. I drink a lot of orange juice.

We go to the high risk OB on Friday for the "anatomy scan." This is the scan everyone gets - the "gender scan" for Live Baby Mamas who are too naive to know that doctors are looking for mostly disaster - and the gender to shut them up and/or keep them coming to the doctor for pre-natal care. I'm not worried about this scan because of all the good scans that have come before it.

So next week is the halfway point and we are ever-closer to viability. As Little Miss Emily always says "It takes a long time to grow a baby."